tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79513343292982596172024-02-18T21:23:56.639-08:00Living in MindfulnessJyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.comBlogger52125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-17926274888411199742020-04-19T17:43:00.000-07:002020-04-19T17:43:50.520-07:00The Eyes<div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 12pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">
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Each time I went to the hospital for a tumor-related procedure (one failed attempt), I was intubated. Covid-19 patients are intubated when they need support breathing. When they are at their last breath. Some of them live to be taken off of their ventilators, some of them don’t.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I was intubated, the first time for maybe 30 minutes until my surgeon realized the intended procedure wasn’t going to work. The second time, I was intubated for almost six hours, when he successfully removed my tumor and installed a temporary ileostomy on my abdomen. The third time, the happy surgery, I was intubated for about an hour, when the ileostomy was reversed. I was in the hospital for my ileostomy reversal the day the coronavirus was declared a pandemic. I was in the hospital on the last day that they did elective surgeries so that they could open up space in preparation for the flood of Covid patients that were to come. I was no longer intubated and I could go home. There are so many who will not go home.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Each time when I went to the hospital in preparation for a procedure, I would shift into what I now call my “medical mind.” It’s a procedural frame of mind, logistical, pragmatic. It’s a mind that says, “Yes, I’ll wait here.” “Yes, I’ll clean my body with these sanitation wipes.” “Yes, I’ll put this paper gown on and nothing else.” “Yes, you can stick me to take blood.” “Yes, you can stick me for an iv.” “Yes, I’ll swab my nose with a gel-iodine, for 10 seconds each nostril.” “Yes, I understand the procedure.” “Yes, I understand I will be under general anesthesia.” “Yes, I understand I will be intubated and machines will breathe for me.”<o:p></o:p></div>
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Before each intubation, there was at least one nurse, anesthesiologist, anesthetist, or doctor who paused. They paused, maybe placed a hand on my shoulder or arm, and looked at me, right in the eye. They saw me. I saw them. They said they would take good care of me. They looked deeply into my eyes. My eyes. Their eyes. Eyes. A glance between strangers, so deep and intimate. The eyes, a window into our souls. The moment of this locking of eyes is when I could no longer stay in my medical mind and I softened. I opened. And I began to cry. Harder one time than the others, I can’t remember which time was which now. But I cried. I was afraid. I was grateful for all the things the tumor wasn’t. It wasn’t cancerous. It wasn’t so big. It wasn’t hard to reach. I felt power and healing in crying in that moment, in the opening and softening, it allowed me to be more fully human. The eyes of those strangers, our connection, to be seen in such a way, if even for just a moment, was powerful in a way that I fear even my words here and now cannot convey.<o:p></o:p></div>
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My takeaway? Humanity. Humanity at the core. Our collective humanity is powerful, connecting and healing. Our individual humanity is inherent and sacred.<br />
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May we soften. May we open. May we connect. May we be human.<br />
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May we see and be seen.<o:p></o:p><br />
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Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-26123231370974533472015-07-30T08:15:00.000-07:002015-07-30T08:22:00.108-07:00Are you sure? 7 Steps to Removing Dysfunctional Filters From Your Lens.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I recently encountered a situation where someone I know believed something to be true due to information she'd been given from another person and based on a situation she had observed. However, I became privy to additional information on that same situation, about events that happened just prior to when this person came to observe. Most of us involved knew bits and pieces of the situation. We each had gained this information from different people and were not present for most of the situation or any of it. All of us had come to our own conclusions of what happened, who was at "fault," and what should be done to remedy the situation. Needless to say, highly charged emotions ebbed and flowed. And I continue to wonder, who was actually "right" and who was at "fault?" And the truth is, unless we remove our own filters and try to see things through the filter of others, we'll always think we are "right," the others are at "fault" and we'll never see how we may have made mistakes too and how the lines are much blurrier than we originally thought.<br />
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In life, even when we are physically present and being as mindful as possible, we can and will perceive each experience and situation differently than the others present because we are viewing it through our own lens. Our lens is filtered with our life experiences, cultural background, gender, age, race, ethnicity, education, religion/spirituality, etc. Our filters influence how and what we see and how we interpret the information we take in. And we are often not even aware of this filtering process, it becomes automatic. In addition, we may avoid communication, won't attempt to engage in open, real communication, or we may blame all others involved. We can experience deep pain and discomfort based on how we interpret what we see and experience through our lens. We can also be treated harshly based on how others' lens' are filtered and what they see through their lens. Here are some steps to take to remove your filters and to gain deeper understanding.<br />
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<li>Ask yourself, "Are you sure?"</li>
<li>If your answer is yes, then ask yourself again, "Are you sure?" Try to take a moment and allow yourself to be unsure, and wonder how it might look or be if you aren't sure.</li>
<li>Ask yourself, "What might the other person think/feel/know/hear/experience?" Try to see if you can view the situation through the other's lens.</li>
<li>Take time to speak with and ask the other person about their thoughts, feelings or understandings.</li>
<li>Be sure to FULLY listen to them, even if you disagree or have a different perspective. Let them finish before you speak.</li>
<li>Explain your perspective, thoughtfully, kindly and respectfully. This doesn't mean agree with everything. We can disagree respectfully. And you might find some ways you misunderstood the other person/situation.</li>
<li>If no agreement can be made or mutual understanding, remember that everyone is on their own path and we cannot force anyone into an understanding or a change that they aren't ready for. You may have to make difficult decisions about what path to take for yourself, depending on the situation.</li>
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These steps give us mindfulness. Mindfulness gives us the ability to gently remove filters from our lens so that we can see clearly the experiences we personally encounter but it also gives us the ability to recognize when we do not have all the information so that we may take care and not paint a false picture of reality. Mindfulness can be the ability to stop and ask ourselves, "Am I sure?" We may have developed an insecurity or a chip on our shoulder that makes us prone to certain assumptions or judgements or false realities. Our assumptions, judgements and false realities feel very real. And our feelings are important. And sometimes we are right. But sometimes we are not. If we are mindful, we have a better chance of being able to see when we are right and when we are wrong and perhaps we can even remove some of the filters from our lens and take positive action so that we can avoid being hurt while also minimizing any hurt towards the people in our lives.<br />
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Look closely. Look clearly. Look mindfully. Breathe. Smile.<br />
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Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-4752817636423227962014-12-31T07:39:00.000-08:002014-12-31T20:26:46.164-08:00Letting Go, Beginning a New<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-83603391808433800212014-11-27T07:00:00.000-08:002014-11-27T11:09:11.891-08:00The Roots of Gratitude Part II<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Having a personal practice of giving gratitude is immensely important and can benefit not only our outlook on life but can also have physical and emotional benefits that in turn improve our relationships with people and things. Being grateful as a family can also uplift each member and bring our relationships closer together. There is no doubt that this practice is magical and beautiful.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Today, the day in which we celebrate the American Thanksgiving Holiday, I am conflicted with deep and intense emotions. Many of us are given time off of work and school to spend with our loved ones. I have spent most Thanksgivings with my family, laughing, playing, eating and enjoying each other's presence. Yet, as I've learned through my formal and informal education the truth behind the sugar coated Pilgrims and Indians story that was spoon fed to me as a child, I find it harder and harder to just smile and wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">I believe that we must look deeply at our own personal pain and suffering so that we may release and heal in our own lives. I also believe the same is needed for looking deeply at the pain and suffering that exists in the history of this holiday. </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">We must acknowledge that this day, even though for many of us, in this day and age it embodies family togetherness, deep gratitude, warm connections, sharing, love and wonderful food, it is based on a dark, greed filled tragedy and massacre of the native people who were living here when the colonizers arrived. If we do not embrace the true nature of this holiday, we cannot embrace ourselves wholly. It is painful to admit that some of our own ancestors participated in the atrocities that history books wish to erase from our memories. It is difficult work to acknowledge that entire cultures and people were destroyed for the benefit of our own ancestors. Yet through bringing this truth to light and embracing it, we can take responsibility and there can be forgiveness, healing and peace for all. Of course there exist current systems and social practices that perpetuate the energy embodied by the colonizers and that also must be acknowledged and addressed, but on an energetic level for the healing of those murdered and displaced, we can offer the unadulterated truth.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">Related articles:</span></span><br />
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<li><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">Native Circle's "<a href="http://www.nativecircle.com/mlmThanksgivingmyth.html" target="_blank">The Thanksgiving Myth</a>"</span></li>
<li><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">The Black Agenda Report's "</span><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 1em;"><a href="http://blackagendareport.com/content/end-american-thanksgivings-cause-universal-rejoicing" target="_blank">The End of American Thanksgivings: A Cause for Universal Rejoicing</a>"</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 1em;">Mitchel Cohen's "<a href="http://www.serendipity.li/hr/cohen.htm" target="_blank">Why I Hate Thanksgiving</a>"</span></li>
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Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-78384874053435349792014-11-22T14:32:00.003-08:002014-11-23T18:18:55.705-08:00The Roots of Gratitude Part I<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrKsfnrvKVNtaPkeyLpxavEO0fBTqXmuDAoKeOGq5pVm9wBxzoclUuRBq8Frg9mBkNTaBANW227L9TIXvNqzsxb86lib2iKCN2JTq1YgLgi7U7bAO0Y3jrLIIcRp4SVticrWMKkRHEoc8/s1600/ID-100943+(1).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrKsfnrvKVNtaPkeyLpxavEO0fBTqXmuDAoKeOGq5pVm9wBxzoclUuRBq8Frg9mBkNTaBANW227L9TIXvNqzsxb86lib2iKCN2JTq1YgLgi7U7bAO0Y3jrLIIcRp4SVticrWMKkRHEoc8/s1600/ID-100943+(1).jpg" height="132" width="200" /></a>The ability to draw our attention to that in our lives for which we are grateful is a skill that truly must be sharpened through practice. We must take the time to reflect and bring the energy of gratitude towards the people, places, things, events and achievements in our lives that we appreciate most dearly. It is possible, with the myriad of daily stresses, logistics, emotions and anxieties in our lives, that we can begin to focus on the negative or feel that we are lacking. But with practice and reminders, our focus on gratitude for what we do have can bring a sense of joy and lightness into our lives. With a heart filled with gratitude, coming face to face with all of life's difficulties can become that much easier.<br />
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Often with a Gratitude Practice, we focus outside of ourselves. We may practice being grateful for family, friends, pets, material objects, etc. Or we may be grateful for experiences or major life events. This is a fundamental part of practicing gratitude and an important place to begin. Today, through a simple guided meditation, I challenged my students in yoga class to bring their practice of gratitude towards their own bodies, minds and souls. It can be very easy to neglect ourselves when offering energy of deep appreciation. We must begin to be gentler with, kinder to and more grateful for ourselves so that that way of being can extend out towards those around us. With practice, being grateful can become our instinct and the foundation from where we function. When I find myself being critical towards my loved ones, it is precisely the same critical voice that plays ten times louder and a hundred times more frequently in my own mind towards my own self.<br />
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I offer to you a gentle practice for deepening the energy of gratitude within your own heart. This was inspired by other sources and teachers that have guided me.<br />
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Begin either lying or sitting comfortably in a quiet space. As you breathe in and out, become aware of the breath entering and leaving your nose. Now bring your attention to your heart and imagine that your breath is now entering and leaving through your heart, energizing and opening your heart center.<br />
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With each in-breath, first think of one person, then one place, one thing and then one event for which you are grateful. With each exhalation, say thank you. Now, with each inhalation, think of one part of your body that you appreciate. On the exhale, say thank you. Repeat 5-10 times with different parts of your body. When you complete your body gratitude, repeat with thinking of aspects of your mind and then your spirit that you appreciate most.<br />
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We are perfect as we are and we have the source of greatness within us. Our potential is infinite.<br />
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Be Kind. Be Grateful. Be Great. In Gratitude.<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">The meditation in this post was inspired by <a href="http://www.yogaglo.com/online-class-2105-Set-a-Positive-Tone-for-Your-Entire-Day.html" target="_blank">Amy Ippoliti's video</a> on YogaGlo (you must be a subscriber of this site to see the actual video and it is linked here primarily for credit)</span>Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-74809645079169842072014-11-15T13:13:00.003-08:002014-11-16T18:21:58.217-08:00Coming Home<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Where is home? What is home? How does it feel? Is there a scent connected with it? What does coming home mean? So much of our time and energy is focused outward on other people, what we "must" do, where we must go. Even if we are sitting in one place, our thoughts are focused out into the future or they can be stuck, dwelling in the past. We may feel like we don't belong or perhaps we feel lost.<br />
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Coming home is a way to ground ourselves and become centered on our bodies, our thought patterns and our processes of life. We can come home by reconnecting to our bodies through our breath, through our mindfulness of movement, through mindful walking, dance, yoga or meditation. Our bodies are our temples, our first physical home for our spirit, the one we chose when we came in to this Earth. </div>
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Our breath is the life force for our bodies, for our energy, for our mind and for our spirit. Our breath can bring us home whenever we feel shaken, pulled or stressed. Focusing on our breath, we can can feel more connected and grounded. When our home and foundation is solid and secure, we are rooted deeply within ourselves. When we accept exactly where we are in the here and the now, we relieve ourselves of so much pressure to be or do something different. We can see clearly when we look deeply at this home. And then, when our roots deepen we are able to grow up and branch out into newness and out of our comfort. We are perfect just as we are now, yet we are also ever changing and growing as part of the movement of energy and life. We must embrace ourselves and the path we are walking.</div>
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Coming home. This time of year, when the holidays near, we may begin to think of coming home. We may actually go to our childhood homes or travel with or go to visit our original nuclear family. Thinking of our childhood and original family can be comforting for some of us but for others, it can create stress and throw us off balance. The dynamics of our relationships can be multifaceted and complex. We may start to feel out of balance or there may be a strong sense of anxiety or mixed feelings. This is when we can practice coming home to ourselves as a source of strength and support. By doing so, we can then be present with the people in our lives. </div>
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Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-19052139931842787232013-11-05T08:34:00.000-08:002013-11-05T08:34:34.048-08:00Transitions<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Transitions for some are scary, overwhelming and hard work. Others seem to float effortlessly from one transition to another, like a crimson leaf floating from its branch. And then there are those that fall somewhere in between - some transitions are easy, others take a bit more effort.<br />
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Regardless of how we handle them, transitions - or change - are inevitable! This time of year, autumn, is perfect for looking within to study our inner workings, the "how" of who we are. Everything around us is changing. The glorious colors of the leaves, the animals scurrying around for acorns, kids back in school, holidays of all faiths and temperatures cooling off. We can look within at our own inner workings not for judgement or making ourselves feel the need to be different, but for understanding. With this kind of deep looking we can gain an insight into how we work, our own process so that when we are confronted with a transition, big or small, we can be prepared for how we might handle it. And often times, when we look deeply like this, changes within naturally occur. </div>
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When looking inward, we can take note of the following:</div>
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These five aspects are perfect for making decisions but also work wonders just as an exercise in getting to know ourselves, who we are and how we function in the day to day.</div>
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As the windy, cool weather comes we may feel pushed to move forward fast and furious with events, kids, friends, family while we may also notice a heavier, slower, snuggle-on-the-couch energy creeping in. I've written this <a href="http://mindfulcreations.blogspot.com/2011/08/changing-of-seasons.html" target="_blank">post</a> about how to keep yourself balanced as this season progresses and now we can take stock of how we are transitioning by looking within. </div>
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Breathe. Smile. Look. Transition.</div>
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Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-33328972101945680402013-03-09T19:18:00.000-08:002013-03-09T19:18:22.894-08:00Restore, Renew, Repair and Try again<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Ok, y'all know how I am. I disappear for a while and then boom, here I am again! Looking back, last I wrote I still had babe number 2 on the inside. My oh my, having two really changes things and puts a completely new meaning to "slowing down" and being "mindful." I'm still trying to figure out how with these two munchkins who offer me multiple opportunities a day to learn. I don't think physically slowing down is always an option with little ones running around but mentally slowing down, being mindful, looking deeply and speaking lovingly are possible. Possible but very challenging to actually do when triggered. And small children sure know how to trigger.<br />
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Since little Miss N was born last September, I have made numerous mistakes in my interactions with Miss A, who's now almost 4. Mistakes that leave me wondering, "Who am I?" "What is going on in me to cause this type of reaction? "How can I repair what I've said/done?" "What do I need in order to feel taken care of?"<br />
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I try to remember how Thich Nhat Hanh puts it, every morning we have twenty-four brand new hours before us. <br />
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“Waking up this morning, I smile. Twenty-four brand new hours are before me. I vow to live fully in each moment and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion.”</blockquote>
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I can start over again and try to do it differently tomorrow.<br />
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Usually when Miss A is acting out, she's either hungry or tired. Two things that have simple solutions but solutions that are impossible to force on children. And believe me, the controlling side of me has tried to force, with very little success. When I have succeeded in forcing her to eat or sleep, I believe that in that moment, I've sent her the wrong message about how to achieve what I want.<br />
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In the moments that I find myself feeling intolerant of her normal 3 year old behavior and behave poorly myself, I know that it's time for me to restore and renew. In doing so, I repair my own suffering/pain and I pick myself up by the boot straps and I just try again. Sometimes I am met with an angry little girl who wants to give me a taste of my own medicine and other times she so tenderly tells me how she felt in the situation and we hug and kiss. What an amazing teacher she is and I'm pretty certain her ever smiling little sister has a full lesson plan for me too!<br />
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Breathe. Restore. Smile. Renew. Be Kind!<br />
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Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-83216940086060183822012-08-15T12:44:00.000-07:002012-08-15T12:45:15.515-07:00Slowing Down<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Oh Boy! 8 months down and 4 weeks to go, the countdown is ON! And it seems as if time is speeding up, but I am slowing down. Really slowing down. It's hard not to with this big ole belly of mine. I write a lot about slowing down because it is one of the hardest things for me to do - even though I know how great I feel after I actually do the slowing down. I just find it very difficult to actually slow and even harder to stop.<br />
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Having a now 3 year old and her wonderful high energy all around also makes slowing down a challenge, but even when she's at preschool or with her sitter, I'm still running around, checking off my ever growing to do list when I could be using that time to sit and meditate, write in my journal, read etc.<br />
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Being so pregnant has made me physically slow down as I hobble around the house, to the car, out on errands. I've definitely got the penguin walk going on and all this extra weight is brutal to carry around on these hot summer days; and I've been lucky it hasn't been nearly as hot as last summer! But even as I am physically forced to slow down, my mind seems to have taken things up a notch or two. My thoughts are a blur of things to do, food to cook, places to go and people to see all before this baby comes. Yet I know deep down the best preparation for when this newborn comes is getting more comfortable with stopping everything because that's what I'm going to have to do. <br />
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Stephen Levine is the author of the book, "<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Who-Dies-Investigation-Conscious-Living/dp/0385262213" target="_blank">Who Dies: An Investigation of Conscious Living and Conscious Dying</a>" where he talks about his work with athletes who are injured to the point of not walking or who are debilitated because of an accident or illness and cannot perform as they once did. He worked with them on accepting where they were and slowing their mind and meditating. This always comes to my mind when I think about how fast and uncontrollable my mind gets, regardless of my physical state. It is especially salient right now because I will be in a state of complete slowness postpartum and will have some very intimate time with my mind. We can all use some mind slowing, the trick is doing it so that when we aren't able to be distracted by our physical running around and "doing" we can touch peace within.<br />
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Slow down! Appreciate. Love. Breathe.<br />
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It's been a while... Most of you know that I'm almost 6 months pregnant which initially halted my writing because we weren't telling anyone during the first 12 weeks and that's all I wanted to write about. So, I silenced myself and then just got plain ole lazy! It happens and I try not to pressure myself to write or then I make writing a post bigger than it really is.<br />
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Well, Anjali was sick all last week and I am just now starting to feel better after catching the nasty little virus she gifted our home with! And boy did I feel like there were endless clouds hanging over me, the house, my energy and my mood! And I think what was just as hard as being sick was all the time spent just sitting with myself doing nothing. Though it was less time than before I had Anjali, because she still need to be fed and watched after, I still had a lot more down time than I normally allow for myself when well.<br />
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I was ever so aggravated with the negative thoughts that I became aware of floating in my mind. Though, in between the aggravated moments, there were a few moments where having the clouds hanging over provided much needed introspection that I otherwise probably wouldn't have had. I often think that getting sick is more our body telling us to slow down and stop because there is something within us that needs our attention than it is about an actual virus or bacteria (though those are very real too!)<br />
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And when the clouds finally start to clear, there is such a deep sense of appreciation for being well. Thich Nhat Hanh has a great story about how we should appreciate our "non-toothache" when our teeth feel great because once we have a terrible one, we realize how little we appreciated being pain free!<br />
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Be Well. Live. Appreciate Wellness. Look Within. Breathe!<br />
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This week for my yoga training we have been assigned to choose one of the five <a href="http://www.yogabasics.com/learn/-the-five-niyamas-of-yoga.html" target="_blank">niyamas</a> in yoga, or internal practices of observation/ethical practices of guidance.<br />
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I had a hard time choosing just one, so I've chosen two. The first is Santosa, contentment. I think it is often difficult to feel true contentment. We are often inundated with distractions, pressures, desires, etc that push us to want more things, keep our calendars packed with activities and succumb to instant gratification. I am definitely guilty! Santosa reminds us that not only should we be content with the joyous and beautiful parts of our lives but also with the difficulties we face as they are an integral part. There is constant change in our lives, even if we somehow maintain a facade of keeping everything the same, it's really constantly changing! And often times these changes can be challenging. These difficult things that come into our lives are lessons of some sort. Something that we need to look at and ask, what do I need to learn from this? It could be a lesson about ourselves, about our relationship, about our job, about our home or any number of things. In the end, if we are clear of mind we can see from more than one perspective and can learn and evolve from our life events, remaining content. Then we are practicing Santosa.<br />
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The second one that I have chosen is Svadhyaya, study of one's self. I saw this interpreted on a couple of sites as not only study of one's self but study of spiritual texts. I'd like to focus on the study of one's self. I think this goes in line with the yama I discussed last time on truth, Satya. I think in order to be truthful, we must study ourselves or look deeply at ourselves, our thoughts, words, actions and behaviors. If we can understand ourselves, then we can begin to see the world and reality around us clearly. I have recently had a difficult time looking at the core of my feelings and understanding where they're coming and why. Of course, as I have shared before, I feel meditation is as a method for looking at ourselves deeply but I think that we can also do this all day long as we apply mindfulness to our daily lives. Taking a few seconds to check in with ourselves throughout the day or when eventful things happen and then setting aside a longer time to reflect on things we've thought, felt, done or seen. And the key when we reflect is to set aside all judgement, it is pure observation. We can decide that there are some things we'd like to try to understand more deeply that perhaps we would like to change, but the goal isn't change so much as it is understanding ourselves. I think that if we can see what's going on inside, then we can understand it and through understanding, any change needed should happen freely and easily...<br />
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<br />Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-80701726354009555342012-01-24T08:23:00.000-08:002012-01-24T08:26:47.269-08:00Universal Principles of Yoga: The Yama Satya<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I recently started a yoga teacher training and we had an assignment to choose one of the Five Universal Principles of Yoga, the Yamas, to research and talk about at our next training weekend. You can find a link to all five of them <a href="http://www.yogabasics.com/learn/-the-five-yamas-of-yoga.html" target="_blank">here</a>, but I chose the second Yoga Yama, Satya - which many of you may know is also my father's first name!</span><br />
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<span id="internal-source-marker_0.38350443076342344"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I chose the Yoga Yama Satya because for many of the early years of my life I struggled with being truthful to myself and to others. As a young child and adolescent, I found myself lying in order to avoid conflict or admitting mistakes (something I saw modeled in my early life). I also just didn’t have any healthy tools for expressing negative emotions and thoughts or when I was angered by a friend. My technique was to stuff it all in until I either exploded at someone or literally walked away from the friendship. This happened far more often than I would like to admit. I was extremely unskillful in the Yama Satya, truthfulness also referred to as </span></span></span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; white-space: pre-wrap;">Loving Speech</span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; white-space: pre-wrap;">. I saw a video on another </span><a href="http://dorestorativeyoga.blogspot.com/2009/07/yamas-and-niyamas-satya.html" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; white-space: pre-wrap;" target="_blank">blog</a><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; white-space: pre-wrap;"> that said that The Yama Satya must be paired with the first Yoga Yama, Ahimsa - Non-violence/compassion - so that our truthfulness (Satya) embodies compassion (Ahimsa) and therefore does not cause and pain or hurt in those receiving it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I can remember friends asking me if something was the matter, if I was upset and the truthful answer was “Yes, my feeling are hurt!” But I always answered, “No, I’m fine.” To this day, my instinct is to answer with the same denial, but the strength of the Yama Satya is so much stronger in me now and I know it is my duty to be truthful to prevent future explosions of anger.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It wasn’t until my twenties that I started peeling away my lack of the Yama Satya and started to attempt to live by it. Of course at the time I didn’t know that the truthfulness I was trying to live by was part of the Yoga Universal Principles, I just wanted to live with integrity and take responsibility for my thoughts, words and actions. I had become aware of how I’d hurt people in the past and how I’d been hurt by non-truthfulness so I vowed to do my absolute best to be honest with myself and share my truth with those around me in the most mindful, loving, ahimsa way possible.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Below is a not-all-inclusive list/outline of the different aspect of how I see the Yama Satya being embodied and engaged by each of us. You may see future posts going into more detail of these, but here is my outline sketched for my assignment!</span></span><br />
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<li style="font-weight: normal; list-style-type: circle; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Acknowledge our thoughts and see where there is truth and where there isn’t and do our best to change our habitual non-truthful thoughts</span></li>
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<li style="font-weight: normal; list-style-type: circle; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">There are an infinite number of paths for each of us to follow, we each have our own karmic lessons we must learn so that we may deepen our personal truths and transform ourselves in the perfect way we are supposed to in this life. So long as our truth/path is not hurting another person or group of people and we are aware of how we affect each other and the world and that our truth is for the ultimate highest good, then we should allow ourselves and others to follow our own truth, even if we don’t like some of them.</span></li>
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</div>Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-37864868187490129502012-01-09T18:48:00.000-08:002012-01-09T18:49:11.636-08:00Unsticking When We Get Stuck<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Feeling stuck can be due to stretching ourselves too thin, poor diet, lack of sleep, fear of change, difficulty transitioning from one season to another or difficulty transitioning from one life "season" to another... the list goes on and on and on. <br />
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I feel defeated when I find myself feeling stuck. I often have this feeling when I'm craving making a big change or doing something new or different and I feel a little intimidated or unsure of which way I want to go. At the core, my stuck feeling is created from an over attachment to a desired outcome combined with a lack of trust in the universe and my path.<br />
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I find I can often unstick myself if I just let go a little and remember to connect back to the trust I have in myself and the universe. Letting go doesn't mean I don't move forward or make that tricky decision, it just means that I try not to have a specific, detailed expectation for how things should go every little step of the way. When I let go of the tiny details, I unstick a little. That heavy weight of fear or indecision lightens and I can wiggle out and see more clearly what is in front of me. I will make the necessary plans and decisions, but perhaps they don't happen this week, but next. Or it manifests through someone I will meet at a future event. </div>
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Trusting the universe is a big one. For some people this is like the faith they have in their religion and God but for me it's about energy. I believe very deeply that our intentions, the energy we pour into our dreams, needs and pure wants, is very powerful. I have taken the time to either write or create a vision board, putting the energy towards a certain goal and then releasing my attachment to it and letting it go to the universe. This doesn't mean that we just sit on the couch and wait for it to happen. Our energy must be transformed into the actions that will bring us to our dreams. And then the magic can happen. You might meet someone when you go to a workshop that will lead to another opportunity and then ultimately to your vision... </div>
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Years ago I wanted to have an opportunity to create and lead a Spanish language workshop. I asked the universe and then let it go. A few days later, my sister was visiting and an old family friend came over to see her. I got to talking with this family friend and as it turned out she was looking for someone to create a Spanish language workshop for the employers in her company. Coincidence? Some might say that's all it was. I would say intention and the universe had something to do with it... </div>
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I will do my best to unstick my mind and body when I find myself in the stuck zone!</div>
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Breathe. Smile. Unstick. Invision. Let Go!</div>
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</div>Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-17149648191009470992011-12-30T11:32:00.000-08:002012-01-02T18:16:28.728-08:00Preparing For Our Breaking Point<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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When I reach my breaking point, sometimes I don't feel like there is any valid "reason" for it. I just feel plain terrible and have this feeling in me that nobody should feel happy if I'm feeling so miserable. Or I feel an irrational sense of control towards those around me. Wednesday, December 28th, those who crossed my path were innocent victims to the seething anger I was feeling. I had lost control of this emotion and despite all my attempts to be mindful, I felt such an overwhelming sense of frustration that I couldn't hear my own mindfulness bell. There is a feeling I get when I know I should make another choice, when I know I should let go and change my current course but on Wednesday, I wasn't listening to it and pushed it aside, clinging to my hurt and frustration. I even left the house and tried to calm myself in nature. This helped a little but there was something in me that was rigid, firm, unbending and unwilling to compromise. It wasn't until after raising my voice at my sweet little girl and seeing the fear in her eyes that I began to soften. I remember having that same fear and disappointment when I was yelled at as a child and it had such a severe affect on me. I vowed I would never do it to my own child. And here I was, again. It has been very few times but they are there. My highest self may be present when I have these outbursts but she's not in the driver's seat. It felt more like the child in me who needed to be heard and listened to was behind the wheel, making all the decisions. The biggest problem is that I am not a child anymore and must find it within me to be the adult, functioning from my highest self.<br />
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I do believe that repair is critical after moments like the one I had on the 28th but I don't think it's enough. Or we could walk around treating people terribly and then apologize and think that's ok to do over and over again. I am determined to work on myself and look into my core to see what it is that is brewing inside of me so I can have a deeper understanding and make the changes I need to. This might be through therapy, healing on a physical level or noting if lunar-menstrual cycles have anything to do with it and plan accordingly... awareness of self, mindfulness of self. Preparing myself for the moments when I am unable to hear the mindfulness bell.<br />
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I have been repairing with my daughter for the last few days, being kind and attentive but not giving in to our regular rules. Trying to be more understanding when she acts out, who knows, maybe she's imitating my own behavior. She is a vivid mirror. I am trying to breathe into the sensations I have within me to see where they are coming from and how I can move forward so that I can minimize and ultimately eliminate these breakdowns in mindfulness. It doesn't mean I won't get angry or have these feelings again, but I don't want to inflict pain on those I love.<br />
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I remind myself of my imperfection. I take responsibility for my actions. I breathe into my core being and promise to do my best.<br />
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Breathe. Smile. Understand Yourself. Have Patience.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I know for a fact I have blogged about this quote before but it seems quite apropos right now with the bustling of friends and family and presents and parties... which I LOVE! I love being with the people I love, friends and family. I love planning activities, menus - especially the sweet treats involved, though I often make the healthy, gluten free, low glycemic version. But what I always forget is how exhausting it can be too, especially if we don't take time to recharge - also something that I've written about many times. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Now, right now, during the holidays it may seem impossible to slow down, especially if there are multiple young children involved in the festivities but I am trying to do two things. When I'm in a social gathering to relieve myself of any pressures (self-imposed or otherwise) to do too much or go beyond my capacity. And it takes being fully present in the moment, the second thing I'm trying to do, to stay aware of any self-imposed pressures to do too much, or to be aware of when I've reached my limit and to know when, where and how to STOP and let go. Even if for a short moment, so that I can release the pressure that been building up, unwind even just a little, and recharge for the rest of the holiday festivities! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Whatever holiday you are or are not celebrating these last few days of 2011, I wish you peace, joy and a beautiful present moment!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Breathe. Smile. Stop. Laugh. Wink. Exhale. Enjoy!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span>Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-58856074132217565592011-12-17T12:51:00.000-08:002011-12-17T13:02:23.571-08:00Humble Request<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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We are busy, busy getting ready for family to come in town but had a simple request to those of you who already follow via email if you feel so inclined. I just upgraded my blog to allow for people to follow it more easily so, please "follow" the blog by going to the follow box on the right sidebar of the blog... and to anyone stopping by and checking the blog out, it would be GREAT to have new readers!!! <br />
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Breathe. Smile. Celebrate. Love.</div>
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I am often surprised by the tone in my voice especially when I've reached my limit. Maybe surprised isn't quite the word, more like embarrassed or ashamed. Often I may say words that would normally convey a kind or neutral message but the tone in my voice carries with it annoyance, frustration, anger or some other emotion. Yet I want to be able to temporarily mask my real feelings until a later time when I can feel more 'in control' so that I might spare my loved ones from further pain or discomfort. The worst time to express myself is when I am engulfed in strong feelings of anger. <br />
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But what do we do then, when we have to interact with those involved in the moment? I'm not sure I have THE answer, nor do I think there is any one answer. And it is in this circumstance that I find my tone gets curt and just not so nice. It is in the moment(s) immediately following the stimulus and before our reaction that we make a critical decision about how we want to play out the scene. Those moments are what Elisha Goldstein calls the "space" between stimuli and reactions. It is in that space that we 'should' try to calmly inform our loved ones that we are feeling frustrated and need some time before we can talk about it. And this is my dilemma, is it ok to have a curt tone of voice? I often struggle with the tone and energy I exude even if the words out of my mouth are not mean. I have a lot of judgement towards myself for the moments I speak with a curt tone with my family. When I'm with my daughter, I often cannot take time "out" to cool off or rather it's not the most practical thing to do, like when we are in the same room, at a friends house or in the car together. <br />
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I suppose that a terse, low tone is better than all out screaming (which I have done for brief moments). I think the issue really for me can be that of dealing with the negative emotion and feelings swirling inside me and then accepting my imperfections and that I will not always say the right thing at the right time. <br />
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Recognizing the mistakes I make and rectifying them seems to be far more important than trying to not make them at all. And as I write all this, it seems so clear and simple. Ideas I've read elsewhere and have heard over and over. Yet here I am still trying to understand the nature of human interactions, my own internal workings and how the drama of life plays out. I am determined to slow down, especially in the space between stimuli and reactions!<br />
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Breathing. Feeling. Swirling. Smiling.<br />
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I was recently asked by a friend and reader of this blog to write on honesty and doing so even when what we have to say may not be easy for the other person to hear. This has also sparked a great idea to incorporate YOUR ideas, meaning you who read this blog, into my idea pool. I would love for you to write in with topic ideas as it helps me get inspired! So send me your topics and I will try to feature one reader suggestion a month!<br />
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I touched on the topic of Loving Speech in a <a href="http://mindfulcreations.blogspot.com/2011_09_01_archive.html" target="_blank">previous post</a>. I think the term loving speech explains itself but I myself often struggle with determining what loving speech looks like in practice. I have determined that there is no step-by-step procedure that we can plug into every circumstance but there are some things I have tried to do in the past that have been successful and hope they can assist some of you in your loving speech endeavors. <br />
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If I am the person who has some feeling or truth that I need to share with a friend or loved one and I sense it may be difficult for that person to hear it, I will first look VERY deeply at what it is I am feeling, thinking, needing. One of the best ways to do this is to journal about the "issue" I have so that I can clearly understand my feelings around it, clearly see the most important parts of it, especially those that will need to be communicated, and look at the part of my being that is involved with this issue. When I say 'part of my being' I mean, is this issue related to the child in me, the adolescent or the adult. This can often help us see who inside of us is in the "driver's seat" as it relates to the issue because let's face it, sometimes it's that little girl or boy who's making those snap reactive decisions or that feisty teenager who was so rebellious is the one who yells at our loved one today.<br />
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Doing this kind of writing can also help us prepare for speaking with our loved one. In the past and even still I have had to share my difficult feelings with my loved ones first in writing, for several reasons. When I am in the moment talking, I often forget things that I need to say so writing them down helps remind me and having my loved one read about it first helps ease the tension I have around the issue and around any fears I have about talking. Also, I often forget my mindfulness when I am speaking, especially when the discussion is fresh or raw, so writing keeps me mindful as I can do my best to ensure that the message is delivered mindfully and lovingly. So I think that writing a letter is a more than acceptable first step to engaging in Loving Speech with our loved ones. <br />
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After the letter has been read or instead of a letter, we should always schedule a time to actually discuss the issue. It is crucial that we speak when we are not heated with anger and that we inform our loved one that we are having a hard time and that we would benefit from having a Loving Speech conversation about an issue. I cannot stress enough that we cannot speak when we are heated with anger as our perspective will be tainted and we will likely say something we regret, I've done it and it doesn't feel good for anyone involved. <br />
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I find that speaking from the point of view of how I feel vs telling the person what he or she is doing wrong also helps bring to light the issue in a lovingly way. So I might say one of the following:<br />
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"I feel very frustrated when...."<br />
"I find that I have a difficult time when..."<br />
"I notice that I don't understand..."<br />
"From my perspective it seems like you're...."<br />
"When you said, 'XYZ,' it made me feel...."<br />
"Can you help me understand why you..."<br />
"It would help me if you could...."<br />
"Is there something one your mind..?"<br />
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These statements reinforce that it is MY perspective or feelings and that I am trying to find out more about the situation or my loved ones perspective so that we can try to come up with a solution.<br />
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Along with Loving Speech also comes Deep Listening. So, even though I may be the one that has a frustration with my loved one, I must do my best, my very, very best (this can be very difficult) to listen deeply to what my loved one says and ask questions when I don't understand or explain myself even more in reaction to what he/she says but we must also let our loved ones speak fully too!<br />
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Finally, we should always try to have Loving Speech conversations about positive things too, on a regular basis, so that we are not always sitting down to focus on the negative. Something Rishi and I have done in the past, which I think as a result of this post we may need to start up again, is to sit down with each other a least a couple of times a week and share things that we are grateful for about each other and note the things that we each did that helped us or that made us happy so that when we have to sit down and discuss our grievances we can feel strong and secure in the positive foundation that rests on all the things that we love about each other and that we are grateful for.<br />
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I think that this way of speaking is pertinent to almost all relationships and can really help us clear the space and energy. Something I often struggle with is determining for myself what issues are serious enough to share and with whom. Do I do this with an acquaintance, unlikely, but possible. Coworker, should but may not. Friend, more likely to but it might not always happen. Husband/Wife/Partner, definitely. Child, absolutely. Do I tell them every single annoyance and frustration, probably not unless it's frequent, reoccurring or turning into resentment/anger. So I am NOT perfect with this. These are things I have tried to do but do not necessarily do to perfection, but hopefully this can give guidance and ideas for the next time you need to discuss something difficult with another person. Clear, positive, compassionate communication can enhance any relationship!<br />
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Breathe. Speak. Love. Listen. Communicate!<br />
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So my family has an "I'm right" gene where we really stand this ground til the bitter end. I carry this gene too. I have in the past been so stuck on being right, perhaps to prove my intelligence or worthiness but it was years before I realized how tremendously frustrating this trait can be. I can remember 3 people in my family hurrying through the door into my house to verify who was right about a piece of information they had been arguing about during the entire ride over and what struck me the most was the energy that I sensed about it not being so much about finding the true answer but about someone being right and the others being wrong. So, I'm not trying to say that we shouldn't search and discover the truth, or point out huge fallacies such as racist based wrong doings because that is indeed very important BUT I'd like to take a deeper look into the attitude and energy behind being right, especially on the one-on-one personal level.<br />
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When I think I'm right whether it's about a fact, belief, opinion or philosophy and so does the other person in the conversation, one of us is very likely not right and possibly even both of us may be wrong or we may both be right, all depending on the topic and circumstances. When I make every possible attempt to show you how right I am it means I'm showing you how wrong you are, which doesn't necessarily make you feel very good. I noticed that this can even happen when my showing my rightness is meant to relieve someone from discomfort. <br />
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We had my uncle and his girlfriend in town and they were over for our 2nd Indian take-out dinner with my mom and sister and niece. Most of the group have a hard time with spice so we ordered raita, a yogurt based side dish that can help ease the pains of spiciness. Well, after everyone was sweating from the fire in their mouths and even the raita wasn't helping, I remembered that sometimes restaurants have been known to spice their raita. I tasted it by itself and it did indeed seem spiced. I had my sister and husband try too to make sure I wasn't sensing the spice from another dish. Then I began spreading the news, so the really sensitive mouths might spare themselves from further burning. My mother insisted the other bowl of raita next to her wasn't spicy but tears were streaming down her face due to the fire burning in her mouth. So, we did another 3 party taste test and that raita was indeed spicy.<br />
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But in the process of proving my rightness, even though it was to be for the benefit of all those in the room, I proved my mother wrong which based on her reaction didn't make her feel better - even if it was going to put the fire in her mouth out. She still had a sense of irritation by my needing to prove my rightness. But you may be thinking, "But you were right!" Well, I was right but that doesn't mean I needed to loudly and brashly prove my mother was wrong (a beautiful mother daughter tradition ;-) This is a dangerously slippery slope that doesn't have the same approach each time.<br />
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In my 20-20 hindsight, I think next time I may simply say, "Maybe I'm wrong. It seems spicy to me but it's possible that I'm wrong." Or I could have said, with a sincere tone, "I'm sorry for offending you, I really was only trying to spare you further discomfort." In other circumstances we could also say, "I think this is right, but I'm not 100% sure. Shall we look into it together?" or "I may be wrong." Even if we feel like we are 100% right, the attitude can really make a difference in how we make others feel. There is a certain level of humility that we attain when we realize we are not always right. I have learned to admit being wrong as well as reduce the need to prove my rightness, though I'm not perfect so it does happen. But I do notice I feel better when I'm not out to prove myself right and admit that I can make mistakes! Allowing others to have some rightness and accepting our wrongness can actually have an amazing affect on our relationships...<br />
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Breathe. Be Right and Wrong. Be Wonderful.<br />
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There's an interesting <a href="http://www.ted.com/talks/kathryn_schulz_on_being_wrong.html">TedTalks by Kathryn Schultz</a> on this and Richard Carlson's Chapter 12 on pg 33 of his "<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Sweat-Small-Stuff-small-stuff/dp/0786881852">Don't Sweat the small stuff</a>" book also has a great perspective too!<br />
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I am often amazed at the little voice in my head and how negative and surprisingly judgemental it can be. That little voice is our self talk, that which we are often not even fully aware of and even less in control of. Many, if not most, of us are engaging in frequent negative self talk that often involves judging ourselves based on millions of preconceived ideas we have for how we are supposed to be. <br />
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During one of those 70 degree November days we had a few weeks back, I decided not to sit at my computer during Anjali's nap but rather to go out and clear our vegetable garden of the falling leaves. And it took me the majority of the time that I was out there to finally stop pointing out in my head all the things that weren't good enough about the garden, the way I planted the seeds, how it was growing, how I could be tending to it better. And then I looked around our back yard, and the judgement went on and on... and instead of simply noticing all these things, for example that there were millions of leaves everywhere that needed to be cleaned up or that I could take better care of the rest of the yard, make it look nicer. Instead of simply being aware of these things, there was a negative, judgemental gremlin attached to every thought I had and everything I noticed. The lack of landscaping, the weeds that have taken over the yard, the toys strune about. Those of you who know us, know that our yard, especially the back yard, tends to be pretty low on our list of priorities. Long story short, the things that I noticed were not really the "problem" but the judgement carried with it could become one. We have chosen to focus our time, attention and energy on other things and we do not want to use chemicals to kill weeds, so our yard doesn't look nearly as nice as others. But the birds come and hunt their worms, the squirrels eat our acorns and the chipmunks scurry about too! But I still judge myself!<br />
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Luckily, after getting my hands in the dirt and really giving the plants lots of love, the clutches of negativity and judgement began to soften and finally release and I really began to relax and be present with all the beautiful life that surrounded me. The lovely green plants that we cultivated and have allowed to thrive. I noticed the beautiful blue sky and soft clouds floating by... all things I wouldn't have noticed if I'd kept myself locking in my negative self talk.<br />
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Positive affirmations are key to reversing any negative self talk. Meditation helps us to become aware of it. Love, Nature, Kindness also help!<br />
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Breathe. Affirm. Soften. Let go!<br />
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Giving Thanks - a beautiful practice. A practice that can bring us closer to the abundance in our life, closer to our loved ones, closer to our true selves. I have tried in the past to practice giving thanks everyday. Even Rishi and I have taken the time to express gratitude each day to each other, though, as busy as life gets, it tapers off and isn't done as often. I think that we should take more than just one day out of the year to stop and express our deep gratitude for what we have in our lives and those loved ones we have to share it with. <br />
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At the same time, though there is much that I am grateful for, I struggle deeply with the holiday that is before us - Thanksgiving! I love gatherings of people that I love and even more so when there is great food involved. But just as I believe that we must look deeply at our own personal pain and suffering, I believe the same is needed to look deeply at the pain and suffering that exists in the history of this country. Over the past decade and a half, as I've learned the stories that make up the beginning of this nation, stories of it's formation that are the foundation of all the systems, processes and deeply held attitudes and beliefs, I see tragedy, betrayal, lies, deep suffering and much much more. We must acknowledge that this holiday, even though it presently embodies family togetherness, deep gratitude, warm connections and sharing and love, and wonderful food, it is based on a dark, greed filled tragedy and masacre of the native people who were living here when the founders of this country arrived. If we do not embrace the true nature of this holiday, we cannot embrace ourselves wholly. I will link to a few other blogs and articles that explain in much more detail, not for the faint of heart, so that we can face and embrace the truth that lies beneath the sugar coated holiday we all know about. <br />
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I do NOT mean that we cannot enjoy being with our loved ones, enjoy delicious food (in mindful moderation!) and create fabulous memories on Thanksgiving. BUT, I think a great practice, even if it's just our own personal practice is to take a few moments of silence or in meditation, giving deep thanks to the millions of souls that lost their lives tragically as part of the formation of this country. I also plan on expressing hope for the souls in the present day who are currently forming this country into what it will become to find deep mindfulness. Ultimately, I think having conversations with our families and others about the true history of Thanksgiving will lead to a transformation of consciousness that could ultimately lead to a transformation in how we honor our past.<br />
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I am grateful for everyone who takes the time to read this blog! For my amazing husband and daughter! My parents and sisters. The family that I gained through my wonderful marriage! My extended family! I have so much gratitude for our house, my husbands employment, the food on our table and the love in our hearts! I give thanks for the universe and all the gifts I have received!<br />
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Breathe. Remember. Embrace. Love. Give Thanks! <br />
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In Gratitude, to the native people of this land who lost their lives, their land and part of their heritage and spirit as it was stolen. In Gratitude to the African slaves torn from their homeland forced to work to build this country from the ground up.<br />
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This is one of the best articles I found that express and explain what I am referring to in this post: http://www.serendipity.li/hr/cohen.htm<br />
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You could also check out <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Peoples-History-United-States-1492-Present/dp/0060528370">Howard Zen's A People's History of the United States</a>.<br />
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<br />Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-69910413521084427992011-11-21T12:02:00.001-08:002011-11-21T12:38:28.494-08:00Peace, remaining calm in your heart!<br />
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"Peace is not the absence of chaos or conflict, but rather finding yourself in the midst of that chaos and remaining calm in your heart," Mr. John Mroz.<br />
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I have read this quote a few times and it keeps coming back to my mind, especially when I cannot find the calm in my heart, like when Anjali slaps me three times in a row for not letting her play in the car, or when there's crazy traffic and I'm running super late... I think living this quote wholeheartedly is what I am striving to do in this life but it might be this entire lifetime that I need to learn to practice this. <br />
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I suppose I shouldn't be so hard on myself, I can remain calm a lot of the time but there are certain things, triggers, that just push my buttons so hard that a switch is flipped and the Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde syndrome is activated, turning me into an evil villain.. or at least that's how I feel on the inside and many times how I act on the outside. Of course, we all have a little Mr. Hyde (the 'evil' one) in us... perhaps evil is not the most mindful of terms, but that part of us that isn't as skillful in loving kindness and compassion. <br />
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Often it's the little hurt girl/boy inside of us that didn't get heard or it's because we are not living our lives to their fullest potential, or we just haven't taken the time to really cultivate deep mindfulness, loving kindness and compassion! Or it's all three or more reasons. Whatever the reason, we have a part of us that has a knee jerk reaction that isn't always the kindest. And this part of us may be the part that rules our behavior the majority of the time. Or just part of the time. Regardless, that part is there, perhaps just a seed, or perhaps a fully sprouted plant in our consciousness! Meditation is one of the most powerful tools that we have at our disposal to quiet that side of our beings down so that the loving kindness can flourish!<br />
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I know that I have tried to pretend that part of me doesn't exist off and on over the years but it's during those times that it seems to gain more power and control.... I have also tried to avoid conflict, pain, discomforts, anger, etc because wow, how hard are those things to face!!! VERY! And we usually feel about as chaotic as those feelings themselves! or the situation! Facing conflict and pain means facing our darkest side and that same side in those around us, even in our closest loved ones. And this is definitely uncomfortable, perhaps even shakes up our reality in a way that disturbs us. Mindfulness comes into action so that we don't behave with that knee jerk reactive part of ourselves but that we are able to take an objective perspective. See what role I am playing in creating the situation and to come up with a solution.**See disclaimer below. And mindfulness also lets us see that we are not the only ones that feel this way, that darker side of ourselves and our lives isn't bad, it just is. It's there and ignoring it just makes it a monster. Confronting it helps us to realize that it's just as scared as we are!<br />
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Mindfulness is the tool to remaining calm when in the middle of a hurricane, giving us the awareness to approach the conflict peacefully so that we can share in the solution without guilt, shame, fear or any other negative emotion or if those emotions arise, we are more equipped to manage them! And meditation is the technique that is very effective in attaining high levels of mindfulness!<br />
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Breathe. Look Deeply. Smile. See the Dark. Breathe in the Light!<br />
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(**Disclaimer - this is NOT possible if there is any form of abuse going on, verbal, emotional or physical! People who are abused do NOT play a part in their abuse, even if they have done something to anger the abuser, the fact that the abuser cannot control him/herself is not their fault!)<br />
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I was reminded by a great friend of mine recently the precious value there is in self-care and I've touched on this topic in at least one or two earlier posts. I've been running around trying to get my mom settled in her new apartment and offering my moral support to another family member who is going through a really hard time... and of course, I am happy to do so and usually have the energy and time too, when my faithful babysitters are free, but taking care of others does utilize our own energy so it's crucial that we take the time to rejuvenate ourselves! I definitely want to be clear that we can take care of ourselves AND support those around us as long as doing so doesn't hurt anyone else or ourselves!<br />
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I was remembering when I worked in San Diego for a non-profit law office taking in the stories of immigrant women survivors of domestic violence - literally translating their stories of abuse as part of their legal case to get their immigration papers in order without the help of their citizen abuser husbands and it weighed terribly on my heart. So I had to take a permanent reprieve from working day in and day out with that sort of trauma. It is very easy to make other people's stories and stress feel like our own, especially when we care deeply for them. There is a way to keep our energy from being drained - self-care! We also can work on grounding ourselves through deep breathing, meditation and imagining a protective energy around us when we know we are going to be interacting with people going through a very hard time or for those people who work with trama survivors or who are in very difficult situations.<br />
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There is always going to be something to do, someone to help or somewhere to go - and we should do it as our lives and time permits. Supporting those around us and in our community can serve us at a deep, core level where our heart, mind and souls meet. BUT, if we are running on empty, then we are no good to anyone.<br />
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Please, please, please let us vow to take time to calm our minds, release all heavy energy from our heart, focus on some simple beauties in life like the sunset, a beautiful flower, an autumn breeze, relax in our own way and refuel ourselves so that we can continue on our life path and be support for those around us!<br />
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Breathe. Smile. Release. Rejoice. Rejuvenate!<br />
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<br />Jyoti Kaneriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09379532160329044124noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7951334329298259617.post-85289108756039868872011-11-01T12:20:00.000-07:002011-11-01T12:21:24.479-07:00Setting Boundaries: Kind but Firm<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I remember when someone suggested years ago that I didn't have healthy boundaries set up with a particular relationship. I didn't even really know what that meant - and through my cultural studies over the years, I learned that it can mean very different things in different cultures! Even to this day, I struggle with creating healthy boundaries within my family, friends, acquaintances and colleagues. Theoretically, I think I have it all figured out. In practice, that is a much different story! I can remember thinking as a child that if I avoided all conflict and never made my own needs more important than those around me than all would be well. That notion right there may give some insight to the environment that was my childhood home. (**Disclaimer - I LOVE my parents, but as with all humans, they are not without their faults, as I am not either, and thus have given me many opportunities for reflection, growth and to see how I might try to do things differently)<br />
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Well, I have definitely realized that being the kind of "yes-woman" I thought I should be is NOT the way to go as it leads to passive aggressiveness, untruthfulness, unresolved feelings, etc. And luckily, it never got me into too much trouble - though my husband would beg to differ on that as it relates to my high school days! <br />
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So, then, how do we set boundaries without pushing people away, being mean/rude, or without seeming like selfish, ego-mongering jerk? Well, I don't have one nice, neat answer but here are some ideas worth sharing...<br />
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Something Rishi and I learned in our parenting class can be a GREAT guide in setting boundaries - Kindess with Firmness or Firmness with Kindness. When interacting with my 2 year old, this sounds like, "I hear you that you want to play for one more minute, but it's nap time. I love you but we are all done." I can guarantee I do not always get kindness back in return but I actually do sometimes. (I also get angry screams and loud "NOs" too, as she sometimes gets from me when I'm not on top of my game!)<br />
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We should also check in with ourselves and make sure we are taking care of ourselves and to make sure that our commitments, relationships, responsibilities, etc are nourishing us in some way for the better/in a positive way! Now this is the tricky part, especially as it relates to our families. I am known for not always being so kind with my words and tone when it comes to speaking with my own mother. But I have also been known to toggle between giving and giving to her and having to back off big time to get some reprieve. I have found that I feel the best when I can control my tone and keep it kind but be clear on my boundaries for what I can do and then offer some suggestions for how she can figure out the things that I either can't do or am not willing to do at that time. Of course there is guilt involved for not wanting to do everything for my own mother, but I truly believe that if we do everything for another person - both people ultimately lose out because one is exhausted and the other hasn't learned his/her own lesson is self care and personal responsibility. When I've told my mom that I can't do something - she often does it herself, hmmm and probably earned a rewarding feeling of accomplishment too!<br />
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I do think there comes a point when we can give so much to others that we have to be sure to take care of ourselves and it is up to each of us to figure out what that limit is and what it is we can do to feel taken care of. I firmly believe that TRUE nourishment and self care comes from a non-commercial, natural source. Buying a new pair of $200 boots, not the best nourishing self care, but definitely not the worst. Getting into nature, getting a massage, spending time with a nourishing friend, these are some great, non-commercial, natural ways to take care of ourselves!<br />
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Breathe. Smile. Take care. Be Firm with Kindness. Love!<br />
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As I've mentioned before, I have been working on re-igniting my long time passions for health and wellness that I've had now for the past 13 years - which up until now had only been a personal journey but now my intent and vision is for it to become a professional one as well. This blog has been part of the foundation for the new flame I am igniting to help the passion grow! Reiki has been another part of the foundation. I am able to receive the benefits of the reiki energy for my own healing from when I went through my attunements and whenever I practice on others. <br />
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Reiki at the simplest level is an amazing relaxation and stress reduction technique but at it's most complex, well, I'm not even sure if I know all of what it is at it's most complex, but at a deeper level, it is an energetic healing modality that helps balance the subtle energies of our body. The healing can be physical, emotional, spiritual, ancestral and karmic. The subtle energies that Reiki helps to balance include our chakras, our aura and our own ki or chi. And indeed these energies are very subtle, which can make it difficult for us to grasp them and to grasp reiki.<br />
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There is science behind it - all matter is energy, energy is also all around us in forms that we can't even perceive, and since we are made up of different forms of energy too - why wouldn't we be able to use the inherently positive energy from the universe to help rebalance our energies? This is actually deeply connected to Quantum Physics - much of which I intuitively understand but have not studied at any great lengths therefore will not go into that aspect of it, yet anyway!<br />
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The intuitive part is the part that doesn't fit into hard science and can easily be discredited by the scientific, pragmatic left brain side. Intuition is that gut feeling you have that tells you "yes, go forward!" or "Nope, run away dear, run fast!" Many of us second guess this part of our being or we are so disassociated from it that we don't even feel it. Often our socialization, our families, our experiences or trauma have created an even further divide between our conscious mind and our intuitive body. <br />
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I know I'm always preaching about meditation- but it is a wonderful way to start to reconnect to our intuition. Also, when we are faced with decisions, we can do a "decision meditation" where we sit and get into a meditative state and then bring the decision into our conscious mind and see what our "gut" feeling is. That feeling may be in our gut or it may be in another part of our body, but often it is more of a feeling, the less rational side of things. That "gut" feeling may contradict everything you know and believe but it is your intuition telling you something from a more expansive place. If you find yourself thinking too much or being overly cerebral about it, then you're probably not intuiting. <br />
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An example of how my intuition works best is my people meter. There have been now several occasions when I met a friend of a friend (different friends) and had a bad feeling in my gut and sure enough, usually within a short period of time, that person did something pretty bad to the friend. I often second guess the feeling, afraid that I'm being judgemental or not giving them a chance but each time it's been confirmed by actual behaviors. I have also had personal experiences where I just didn't listen to my intuition several times until I finally started to feel badly about a situation. It was only once feeling bad that I realized I kind of knew all along this wasn't going to work out. So there is merit to listening to your intuition and it can save you from unnecessary discomfort!<br />
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Intuition can also inform you about some of the goodness in your life or what that goodness is. Listening to intuiton can help us figure out our life passion, what we need to focus in in the present moment for our own wellbeing or the wellbeing of our loved ones! When we have that feeling of inspiration, that is our intuition telling us, "YES!" Whatever has inspired you, your intuition is letting you know that it is for your highest good!!! <br />
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**Disclaimer** There is of course a great difference between an adrenalin rush and inspiration. There are some experiences, foods or substances that may give us an adrenalin rush or stimulate us but they may not be good for us... food addiction, smoking, drama, gossip, etc... try to pay attention to the difference!<br />
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I really urge anyone I talk with to start to connect with their intuition and use it as part of their decision making information. Don't base an entire decision solely on intuition, especially major ones, but use it in addition to your pros/cons list and the other things you do to make decisions!<br />
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Breathe! Smile! Intuite! Trust!<br />
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